now, this is for u!

this one is for u, out there ...

you keep pushing and pulling me around
keep actin' like you owe me
i keep runnin', i can hear you behind me

i'm already gone, i'm gone
i can't let you contain myself

you said " you never really want me back "
if that's a fact -
you better get brand new plan attack
make sure u crack the stone

do you love me?

Be Ready ..

ready to fight ...

.. i'm ready ..

(yawn) .. mhhmm... uhhmmwaaahhh... (yawn)
morning, sunshine!

click! (switching cd player)
dam..dudidam..dam..yeah, yeah.. boom..bla..ba..baldidudam...
a little bit dance in the morning- wake up my spirit

shower- meet landlord for monthly fee
go make quick breakfast - get ready for work .. yum..yum.. (crounching raisin)

ups, almost forgot my MP3 player- gotta bring my tunes into life!

i'm ready!

Shut Up!

for all the angry
for every time I need the truth, and you were faithless
disappointment, self depreciation, being lies & fantasies you deceived me

and mystery is concealed
and I’m blaming myself for believing my prophecy with you

I should kiss your dirty lips from bringing me my clarity in

for disrespect, carelessness with my emotions

for giving empty temptation for making me feel like a cheap replacement

all the guilt you make me feel

this time
I forgive you
I must forgive you ..
'cause it makes me feel so high .. so good ..
it feels so good, letting it go …

now that you make me see
all those lies, in every me
all those guilt, you make me felt

'cause .. I feel so good, I let it goYou know I feel good letting it go

as like u can wish...

' I only just thought of it, ' he said hysterically. 'Why didn't I think of it before? Why didn't you think of it?'

' Think of what?' she questioned.

' The other two wishes,' he replied rapidly. 'We've only had one.'

' Was that not enough?' she demanded fiercely.

' No,' he cried triumphantly: ' i'll have one more. Go here and get it quickly, and wish our time alive again.'

Inside the Bus...

Trip was same route as I used to have when goin to vietnam, but this time- I'm trying local way .. goin with private taxi- cost 30 bucks @car, and there're three of us. Road was bad, bumping & jumping.. 'til we got to bavet border.

Stop by at Duty Free Shops, bought some cheap stuff, and ahead to city by local bus- cost you around 1.5 bucks. Of course, it will be far away from convenience bus.

.. no aircon, and unfortunatelly when we got there,, there's no seat left- so we're hoppin on the red "dingklik" in between passangers.

Strange people so ignorance to each other. There's this old man, sitting next to me & un-guilty put up his feet agains me. Fiuh.. what a behaviour lately-

A girl busy eating her lunch, sitting on the floor of the bus- buzzling around people keep walking in front of her, not mention some steps on each others foot.

Few teenagers keep listening to their MP3 with sound stereo all over the bus, not considering their music was quite destructive & drivin me crazy-

A man kept moving his head from left to right, from right to left with his hand waving for air to breathe .. i guess he was just carrying heavy things - cause i aint feel hot at all.

One old man kept his conversation, with others on the phone- loudly and mixed vietnamese & chinese .. shouting, laughing .. seems like he's inside his own cubical office, where people wouldn't even care what he's talking about.

What a day inside a bus-

Children of Cambodia

This is face's of children at Cambodia - most of them are born in poor condition, especially on the country side. It was so surprisingly that they have become such a burden for their family, so their parent got urgently to sell them away.
yeah, this was happen to several family- but of course, there's still part of loving family, too. Taking good care of their children & their education.

Education is much cheaper than what we've thought- but still, the economic wasn' t that good for them- hard to support the family living .. some of the children has to work, in order to get something to eat.

There's one things I haven't find the answer yet; most of the babies are not wearing pants.
Diapers? that I would know how the answer would be- cause it's expensive, but pants?
.. will back to you, once i got the answer ...

Still Wondering ..

sunshine day-
First trip of work, to visit my projects -.. waaaaa.. driving me crazy this lady .. keep asking things to be change all the time. It's just that when you're trying to help & give them the best, they never appreciate it- ....
.. havent got to other site, to take some snaps there- wait 'til i got there!

Haven't mention when i got into office, my x-bf show up & told news like i'm watching CNN9 in the morning .. also sms's, calls back on fewdays bfore .. afternoon, evening, late night or early morning .. still wondering why he still bugging around, while there's lot others for him to take care? ..

o yeah, can't wait to get today done- i wasn't feeling so good. Got stomachache in the morning, and too many gas - hmm... couldn't be cause coke yesterday night, or red wine last night? or maybe mixed both of them? ...
not yet count for tonight! yihuii..... will be allright for the long night tonight ---

Meaning of Love

If you love someone because you think that he or she is really gorgeous..

then it's not love .. it's

- Infatuation -

If you love someone because you think that you shouldn't leave him becuase

others think that you shouldn't .. then it's not love .. it's

- Compromise -

If you love someone because you have been kissed by him .. then it's not love .. it's

- Inferiority complex -

If you love someone because you cannot leave him thinking that it

would hurt his feelings .. then it's not love .. it's

- Charity -

If you love someone because you share everything with him .. then it's not love .. it's

- Friendship -

But if you feel the pain of the other person more than him even when

he is stable and you cry for him .. that's ..

- Love -

If you get attracted to other people but stay with him without any regrets .. that's ..

- Love -

If you let him go knowing that he has to go but he doesn't want to.. that's ..

- Love -

Lately..

wasn't it so fun? ..
after been gone for few years, and now I'm facing this new era of my life - found out that possibilities are open wide in front of me to choose- only for me!
and u never know yet ... there're more surprises coming for me, hihihihi... so much fun!

never thought these people, or all these stuff was mentioned for me, only- hihihi...
i've been laughing for these fewdays- so interesting to be a participant, a watcher of this life-

oh yeah, got some surprise coming while i was holding my saturday event- something come up so true and open, and it was bright side from all things happening to me-
fiuhh.... such a relieve, that i've been bless all this time !!

and yet, it feels good to release from bad luck-