Hope(s)

couldnt resist to shown my happiness of heading back home.

even many times.. i told myself, not to much hoping the condition will get better.

but still, i'm still doing it .. hope i will not get hurt, too deep....

Welcome to the World

... to 5 small puppies of Xena!!!
i was reading my vampire's novel, when the maid shouted my name-
hurried down the stair, wondering what's happening at that moment?! Oh, yeah- it must be her!
peaking through the glass door, unable to get through it çause she was so fierce to anyone get near her ... guess, its a mom's proactive feeling ..

one small puppy lying there, not moving and still inside the 'bag' .. poor him! kept telling her to bite & lick him, but seems desperatly nooded to understand it.
bare myself, to open the door - and get near to the poor puppy- .. he's moving! he's trying to breathe ..
quickly, grab chopstick- i'm bit yaiks w/ new born puppy- then i brave myself cut the bag to allow some air for him to breathe.. i did it!
but he still doesnt move that much, as i expected to be. Even his mom wont come near him & comfort him ..

there was another one, near her- so guess it was the 2nd one .. 'til the 3rd, and 4th and 5th one followed to taste the world- YUP, got 5 in hands ...
everyone so nervous, also excited too-

congrats, xena- the adventure just began! ..

Sad Dream

sunny bright day, when i decided to take my small white dog to ride. before i left, i make a good bye to my brother- which is strange, me & my brother lives on the other part of the world - .. i put my precious dog, on the basket in front. But sometimes, i felt that it's not a dog, it's a cat - but, i hate cat - ... when i touch him, to comfort him, to seat nicely inside the basket - it is a dog!

we keep riding, passing stores, bakery, and some old building - seems like i'm strolling street at France (it was small street, some alley with cute little shops) ..

rain comes so fast, without any notice - and i decided to hurry back, but seems that street i've been passing through like a circle - 'til i got to this section, where its deadly traffic jam.

I keep riding, and passing some cars .. to get my way as fast as i can - i even annoy some trees leaves stroke me & my bike several times.

i saw him get wet, and scrolling inside the basket. poor him - i said 'will get back home, soon'

'til the time, i decided to stop by under big tree & leave my bike & take him on my chest- to give him warmth ... he's moving his head under my arm, to hide from the rain drops.

he wasnt that wet, but stiff - i called his name, but no reaction - he's stiff as a corpse (of course, i never touch a corpse bfore) .. i started to cried, it was all my fault! ..

i saw other dog, near there - thinking of giving him closer to that dog, might that when the dog lick him, will wake him up. But also i think, the doctor was just few minutes from where i stand-

i couldn't decided until i woke up with tears - and saw the clock that i'm late for work!