a kiss

do u know how the magic does coming from someone you love?
even when he just send u an sms, or just a kiss on the forehead?

kiss on forehead more sweeter than the lips - wel, in some case that will refer to other things - which is good,too ... wait, i'm not talking about it!

i miss my bf so much - i miss u so much, baby

his voice ...

today i start with my small snack in the morning .. even i feel i wanna vomit when i taste .. hmm, sort of like goin on pregnant, where every food seems force u to vomit. ..
but i kept forcing myself to do this - my bf gives me support and i got to do this, so i can fight and not give up ..

i gave him a call in the morning ... he was still in his sleep- sorry, baby ...
hearing his voice, gives me emotional support ... to start the day ..

Stress Out ..

has anyone wondering what is 'stress' about? how do u recognize u got 'stress' ?

well, i'm not sure how to explain this to you - but let me tell you how i feel until my boyfriend told me it's stress!

it's just happened like this: u got something in ur mind, which really affects to your feeling- and u couldnt stop thinking of it, cause it' s really inside you, it's about ur life ..
i dont feel hungry, i dont feel concentrate on doing work, and when i walk around, something is missing inside my feeling, inside my life ... so, i'm totally dont know what to do ..

i feel sleppy when bed time comes, but i couldn't sleep. My mind still wondering around, thinking about same problem .. it will only gone when the problem is solve (now, i can see how my bf can't sleep well, thinking of his work for tomorrow ..)
amazingly, morning time.. i always wake up more early than i suppose to .. and by the time, i woke up, my mind back to the same thinking again, and again...

the whole day will be like death person walking .. cause u feel numb, keep thinking the issue - want it to be solve, but it needs time .. and i dont know what should do ..

my boyfriend nicely suggest me to keep eating/ snacking while i'm still on "my stress" ..
i guess, he's also in same phase - but he's more good in handling it ..

some friends told me to release my feeling, with anything i used to do - i used to cry and share feeling with my best friends .. well, it does help but it doesnt solve.

well, do u have the same ? better be care with this one ..

honey, i love you-

additional info:
bfore i always say that i'm fatter cause i'm stress .. seems it wasn't, so what was that all about?

Don't Give Up!!

life was never easy to everyone .. but i refuse to give up - so do u.
never give up, always give the best try - if u think & feel it's worthed to do.
now, i'm fighting for my choice and i do this because it's worthed for me to do ... many reason behind, many scene has been happening & i realize that this is worthed for me to go on ..

all i can do now, is not giving up all this - keept trying my best ..
wish me luck!