Attitude

I have 2 choices to start my life, each day:

1. to be in good mood
2. to be in bad mood

Everytime bad things happen to me .. i choose that it's new things to learn today.

Everytime someone complains or hurting my feeling .. i choose see the positive side of it.

When i can sort all of junks inside my life, and focus on what i should do ... my life should be easier.

The only things that truly yours, that no one can take from is ur attitude- If i can keep take care of it, then everything will be easier. ..

For you, who don't - better start to make changes today .. before its too late!

My Dream Was ...

• settle down in small city, where i found my life partner to life with- and share .. happiness, sadness and glory of life together
• build happy family later on, with small home (not just a house) .. kids, dogs, backyard, normal life ..
• cherish every moments in our life, share every feeling and stories, build stronger relationship for each day
• start new life together, with trust & hard work together .. understand each other
• open talk for problem we're facing, sit together and find solution together, instead of fighting through un-solutions being made of.
• cruising whole world together with awareness and strong feeling to keep 'love' inside each heart, and fight for it, whenever it's needed.

well, again .. life isnt always what we expect but no matter what, no matter how .. we can always try our best to fight for what we believe it's worthed to fight for...

if at the end, the result still wont change ... at least, we've given our best try- and proof to us that it wasnt worthed at all.

so u will lost me forever ...

dont know which one i should feel .. hate n pain or pain n wish or just none of them-

i feel so lost, and so lonely .. gave up everything, every single thing, even little pieces of my heart & life .. for someone, who turn out that he doesnt love me anymore ...

it was so memories, all things happened between us - bad & good, sad & happy .. we've gone through together, and for this matter, why can he stand up & fight for those happy times?
is it that not worthed to fight for? ...

told me not for another person- but he keep to contact her and allow her to coming into his life .. he's like two personality in one body - he's not the person, i know like bfore...

he care about me, still - but there's no more 'love' to give ... it's dry as sand .. to pain inside my heart ...
he wants me to be his side forever, but without love what would it be? ..
i'm fighting for this suffering- for this pain, to be-hold on my love to 'ours' ... will he come back home? .. he knows well how to back home, but will he back home?