SaTurdAy 31 MaRcH 2007

today is Saturday, and i'm still stuck in Vietnam - for doing this crazy job arrangement.
and it's so boring - with job, and even my bf .. too busy with hang out to meet customers-
these issue gonna break the close relationship, if still going on and on ..
it's true, isn't it guys? .. no matter, how can u understand - if u never really have time for family, how can make things work?
we do have our things to take care & to achieve too - but never forget the others, especially family (if you really want to have one)
all i want to do is just like everyone, normally does - is it too much to ask? .. maybe it is, cause until now its still under BIG QUESTION MARK!!!

start better days for each day -
today he called me & we discuss, just like what i expected to be.
Grown ups talked!!

so much fun to be in this way - even the heavy burden still hanging on top of my head! S--T

Messed Up

its been few days i'm feeling down - for some reason that i dont know too ..
it feels that everything just not right, just not fit in every single little things - frustated? i dont even know what that's mean.
woke up in the morning, find out my skin become like an orange - wrinkle and full of red dots. It's not a dengie, its not a disease - its just a reaction of what i felt these few days.
still dont understand why -
i should be happy, having a good bf, still have a place to stay, still live properly - but i know there's something inside me is not happy. Something is not right. And stupidly, i dont know what it is.

my bf scoulding me for behaving like this, he's not comforting me- like i want him to be. Maybe its wrong what i want, but i dont care right now. Everything just messed up for me!
for him, i'm just a person who always bring problem to him - that's always what he thinks about me.
i dont care right now, really dont care - even that really hurts .. after all this long, this is what he always think about me!

thought he would ynderstand me, talk to me and supporting me, but guess its not what happen. Instead he's turning everything against me n think i'm just another liar..