Messed Up

its been few days i'm feeling down - for some reason that i dont know too ..
it feels that everything just not right, just not fit in every single little things - frustated? i dont even know what that's mean.
woke up in the morning, find out my skin become like an orange - wrinkle and full of red dots. It's not a dengie, its not a disease - its just a reaction of what i felt these few days.
still dont understand why -
i should be happy, having a good bf, still have a place to stay, still live properly - but i know there's something inside me is not happy. Something is not right. And stupidly, i dont know what it is.

my bf scoulding me for behaving like this, he's not comforting me- like i want him to be. Maybe its wrong what i want, but i dont care right now. Everything just messed up for me!
for him, i'm just a person who always bring problem to him - that's always what he thinks about me.
i dont care right now, really dont care - even that really hurts .. after all this long, this is what he always think about me!

thought he would ynderstand me, talk to me and supporting me, but guess its not what happen. Instead he's turning everything against me n think i'm just another liar..