Saturday, April 30, 2011

Berbeda / Different



Indonesian version.

mungkin bagimu ku slalu salah
di hadapmu ku tak pernah benar
ku tak bisa menjadi pendamai di dalam jiwamu

ku lelah hadapi semua
ku ingin kau mengerti

kini ku sadar cinta tak bisa
di jalani dengan perbedaan
ku akui ku masih mencintamu dan inginkanmu
kan ku coba jalani hidup tanpamu
di atas pedih yang akan kurasakan
kan kulintasi hidup tanpa dirimu
ku akan pergi menjauh
karna kita memang berbeda

ku lelah hadapi semua
ku ingin kau mengerti
ku tau kita tak mungkin menyatu
ku mau kau mengerti

English version.

for you, i never true, never right
I can not be a peacemaker in your soul

I tired to face it all
I want you to understand

now, I realize love can not live with differences
I admit I still want you, still love you
I'll try to live without you
above all pain I feel
to not live without you
I will go away
because we are different

I tired to face all
I want you to understand
I know we can not together
I want you to understand

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Easter Celebration!


That night, for the first time I'm attending Easter celebrations at the church.
It was so much more then I've expected - it was much, much merrier than my usual church. They played the bells and music in different tunes- different songs and different spirits! (almost break down n cried, for His Mighty shown me a lot)
.. still at that time, I miss being around in Christian church-

It was my baptized moment. Night of the night, where I've been shown so many 'signs'..
You might think that it's just a 'bluff' .. but for what i experienced- yes, God is here, God is listening to my pray and He helped me out.
Thank you, God~

They said being baptized means that you re.gain your life, new life.
I do wish and I do feel that way -
past will be my past, and I'm sure that He won't leave me- as I used to 'leave Him so often.

Many times, I 'denied His presence, His help - feels that I haven't been guide good enough and not being 'gifted for what I asked.
Now, He showed me all - what I've asked was not right, was not good for me.
and now, in this Easter - i will need to re.gain everything back - from scratch .. and re.start everything with good's one.